Trysting Fields

Flood!

Bentendo Shaved His Head

I went out into the garden this morning to drink coffee and smoke a cigarette blearily, as is my wont, and look what I found:

All the kids are doing it.

My sister left some potplants on the front porch for a few hours whilst in the process of moving out, and they were stolen. She was most aggrieved. Coincidentally, my own potplants (the pointsettia and the torture victim) have vanished in the kerfuffle without a trace

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Should I Take This This Down?

Cast your vote now etc

Ever Onward [*]

My archives will be going offline soon. They're under review.

Like I said, there are going to be changes.

They'll take as long as they take.

Thanks for your patience.

[*] Whilst we're in disavowal mode, please note that contrary to rumour I am also emphatically not affiliated with the Church of Satan.

We're Post-Neurocam

It's offically true. I resigned from Neurocam the week before last.

Here's the report I wrote, under the guise of Crispin Black, after being appointed Director of Operations in August. The infamous Black Report. Hope it amuses.

As you can see, Mr Black and I had big plans. And we worked incredibly hard to try and realize them. I gave my life to Neurocam for three months. Then I was deposed by Henley in mid-November. I still don't entirely know why. No genuine explanation has ever been forthcoming.

I managed to claw back my management position (having been running NCI singlehanded for three months, I had a fair bit of bargaining power), but by then it was really too late. I'd been frozen out, and my name had been systematically blackened within the Neuroranks.

I can see now that this was probably always the plan, from day one.

Somehow, in spite of all this, I was persuaded to continue handling the operations@neurocam traffic on Assignment 411x/0x until it closed out on December 5th. Such is the hypnotic power of the Neurocam.

And I've retained one neurocam.com identity ever since. But she wasn't seeing any action. I don't know why they haven't deleted her. Perhaps because they're afraid of what I might do.

I still believe in the vision for Neurocam outlined in the Black Report: a kind of shamanic play-cult, a vehicle for expanding peoples' minds and inspiring their creativity. And it still makes me sad (and angry) that this vision will now apparently never be realized - at least not in any form associated with NCI.

It seems to me now that le Cam - for all its wondrous potential - has always been, and will always remain, very little more than an excuse for Mr Robin Hely and his shifting cast of hypnotised suckers to jerk people around like so many dead-eyed marionettes, for the private masturbatory gratification of Mr Robin Hely.

Oh well.

I learned a lot from the experience.

It has been quite the ride.

We will not cease from exploration

And the end of all our exploring

Will be to arrive where we started

And know the place for the first time